I lost my fur-baby, Daisy, two days ago. It was sudden and we had no warning signs, but from what we can tell, she wasn’t in any pain. I am posting this because I want to and for me, it is important to share it.
(Here she is, sleeping in the hammock that I made for her. Click to enlarge the picture.)
I don’t know what to do without her. No matter where I turn, things remind me of her. I turn off a lamp to keep her from waking up even though she is in the ground and her cage is no longer in the room. I can’t crush 2-liter bottles for fear I’ll disturb her cause she gets excited when she hears the crinkling noise they make. I’ll no longer be able to give her all her favorite treats and affectionately snuggle her and call her “fat-butt”. Well, she was my Little Girl.
We had a routine. I would cuddle her after I’d let her out of her cage. She would wriggle around in my arms, trying to get out of my embrace so she could play. I’d set her down on the bed and she’d follow me from one side to the other, eventually jumping up and placing her two front paws against my stomach. Then she’d go and bite my boyfriend’s feet cause she thought he was a playmate. If I left my cellphone on the bed, she would paw at it and then flip it over until it fell off the bed. I learned quickly not to stash food anywhere near her because she’d rip open the packaging faster than I could.
Someone told me she must have been very happy with me and that she had a good life because she never showed signs of illness or pain. Who knows if that’s true? I don’t, but I’ve been hiding the full extent of my hurt and trying to keep the tears in because I don’t want to bring worry to anyone.
I have been devastated and depressed for the past two days. Pet parents understand this loss, I’m sure. It’s never been easy, and it never will be easy. I am also seriously considering never getting another pet again. I feel like a part of my heart is ripped out whenever they die. Still, I will fondly remember her as the wonderful, talented escape artist she was.